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Wednesday, September 15, 2010

Day 22: you're only as cool as you think you are?


I dunno I feel very blah lately. I mean, I feel very uncool, people almost only seem to want to hang out with me if I offer something or I'm paying for something, very rarely does anyone ask me to hang out with them or make an effort to come see me. I'm not boring, well I don't think I am. And I don't want to always think of something to do. I have quite a few friends via webbernets that I love talking to. But a lot aren't within a bus traveling distance. I don't really try to impress anyone, but when I try to be me very few people appreciate it. I dunno I just feel really irritated about things, I've no ipod to help me out. Maybe I should have a donation button on my tumblr or something so I can get a new ipod. Guess I shouldn't worry about such things right now, I have to focus on getting work so I can save to move to Cali with Eddy Bear.

Tuesday, August 24, 2010

Day 4

Hello everyone, It's day 4. Waiting on dinner and lurking online right now. I didn't exercise as planned, but it's alright, I will make sure to be up bright and early tomorrow. Still have preparation to do.



This Comic was actually very good, I don't often read normal comics, but I had seen it on StarPowerrr's Livejournal and it looked good so I was glad to find it two weeks ago, I just read it last night and I seriously need to get the next Volume. I'm am def a big fan of Noa, but Agape looks so cool. I would love to perhaps cosplay her some day.

Welp did some sewing today, working on a couple things that would probably be more suited for next spring, but knowing me I'd make them work for fall and winter. My mom and I had to go food shopping and stopped in ross and got some stuffs.

This is yes another sweater dress, but it's not black, it's teal but it didn't show up well on the cam

A cream colored sweater dress :3 it's really cute. ( there was a gray one I wanted and I plan to go back and get it)


My step n tone sneakers, they're supposed to be like the sketcher shape ups. Just as well I needed a new pair of sneakers anyway.



My new Tea Pot, I absolutely Adore it. I can't wait to get some really pretty cups as well. :3


well that's all today, happy that I can blog and not have boring day by day thing going on for once. <3 bai bai buu

Monday, August 23, 2010

Day Two: Countdown begins.

Hello all, long time no blog eh? well I didn't feel much need, mainly been trying to lose weight still, went to otakon not working..same old same old. I now have until March, to atleast get a job and get a place of my own. What's happening in March you ask. Well my parents are moving to SC...Now I'm not sure where I want to be quite frankly, but I think I'll definitely want to be in a city. I could go to either Baltimore or Philly, those are the first two choices I have in mind. I have a lot of things on my mind and things I need to take care and hopefully all will fall in to place as I lay down the dominoes. So the next month is crucial, This weekend is the Dir en Grey concert. I will also be getting ready for my trip to Maryland and in the process will be looking for work via craigslist, snag a job and monster. I would love either retail or an office job..I might try to get a job where a friend of my brothers is working, that would definitely help out. This also means I must get myself retainers for my face metal. I will be trying to invest into more work related clothing and the like. I will be trying to blog more often and generally be more productive. I told I have a lot of work. I will also be trying to get my social life in some form of order, and not be sitting in my home all day by myself, For those within reasonable range of driving or bus riding prepare to see a lot more of Miwa. I will be trying for license next month so I can begin driving and ultimately getting a car of my very own. so no more of this having to wait on transportation or someone else will have to occur. Now As far as getting my own place. I would really like to get my own place or in the event I find a boy/girlfriend I would like to live with them, how I'm not going to wait upon that to happen so ultimately saying I will get my own apartment I can't afford to count on a roommate whether I know them or not, it's not really in my best interest. But I however can not live completely by myself so I will get either a small dog or a cat...maybe both. a bird even might do me some wonders. From there I will work on getting into school so I can eventually have a career and not work on hourly wages. It'll be good for me. I will get back to studying and practicing magick, I am a pagan and though I've not abandoned it I've not payed much attention to it in a long while, my mind being fogged by outside things, I need to focus. My art I will be including more into my daily life, that includes drawing, painting photography, sewing, knitting and very recently playing the violin...I have a small one but I need a larger one and will get one as soon as I can. I cannot live without music and I would love to learn, will probably invest in a keyboard so I can practice piano as well, it's a skill I would love to improve on. I need to cleanse my body mind and soul and rekindle the passion I have for my interests. Udoli has not left. My mind has been very overloaded, but I think for now it needs to be more compact instead of completely open. At least a 100 girls and boys so we can have less confusion and be more focused on getting the styles down, that way when present to those who have some interested it will be less confusing. So any mods if you're reading, I hope you are on the same page with me. I will make a separate post on Udoli, to let you know what ideas I have and how we should go about the execution. The spark has returned and quite frankly I feel rather like I should have been feeling for years. This is just the things I have planned so far.

Step 1: Is simply to get a well paying job and get situated, Managing my money better, knowing when to spend on necessities such as clothing and my phone, and when and how to spend/save for pleasure as well as things I want to accomplish, i.e an apartment a....familiar, a car. It shall be quite interesting but I refuse to fail, it's not an option.

Step 2: Moving out...that will be the step I need to get out of this cycle that has been looming in my life for far too long. It will different and I will probably be sad, but I need to do it. I am no longer a child.




Ah I feel good, a post that needed to happen, and to get me back to blogging lol. For those who have my youtube channels There will be only 4 in Use, my 3 personal ones and one for Udoli. Any other channel that you may have me on, that have no activity will most likely be for favorites only...oh and before I forget I will get back to learning my selected languages: French, German and Japanese. Once I'm to a point where I can carry conversations comfortably for each I may move on to something else, but for now this is what I will focus on.

Bai bai buuu.

Friday, May 7, 2010

Hey

So it's definitely been awhile since I actually blogged, right now I'm out of work so I've been working out to try to get back on track. Currently at 199.something.....atleast it's not 200 cuz that has been my issue for evers, my body was like hey we're 200 next day " how do you feel about being 201 this morning" fuck that shet. but hopefully good numbers tomorrow, today I decided to work out every 2 hours for 20-40 minutes. give my body a mix up....I also bought some applesauce, but I've only had breakfast which was a scrambled egg * two egg whites one yoke* seasoned with salt, pepper, and cayenne and one slice of cheese which I melted on there, a slice of toast with mayo and cayenne on that, so more or less an open face egg sammie which was totally delish, and my small splurge for the day. I don't normally have a big breakfast so it was nice, usually just have oatmeal or toast...sometimes regular cereal. I'm extremely sore from the bellydance workout, mainly cuz it's been awhile since I've done it. and well I suppose I was actually doing it properly. I miss having some money though, I don't have any to reward myself for my goals, I suppose technically I don't need it, but I like rewards, well that's all for now...oh I cut my hair btw XD

Tuesday, March 16, 2010




For those who have been following, this is my ticker. I'm doing well with weight loss, it's been a little slow but I'm gonna change that. So far I'm about 5 lbs away from getting a new tattoo. when I had lost the first 10lbs I ended up getting a snake bite which was around late Jan when I got it due to conflicts about what tattoo to get, I will be starting sleeves do hopefully by then end of march beginning of April I will get that done. just need to up the exercise. My waist is now at 38.5 inches which is where my torso curves in. Now I see some slight changes in my body, less rolls on my back and my thighs are looking smaller. I can now fit into a size 15 pants, and can comfortably fit into a 42 DD again. Fruit is in the house again and trying to keep up with taking a good meal to work if I get a half hour break. Right now I just dance for about 45 minutes once or twice a day, but I have both Bob's boot camp work out and Jillian's 30 day shred, I also have her front and backside dvd's so I'm going to try to alternate those two vids with the boot camp and 30 day shred ( basically Boot camp or shred followed by either front or back side) and of course get my dancing in which means getting up in the morning for a total of about 2 hours of exercise in the morning ( estimating) and 45 minutes in the evening. I'm gonna shoot for atleast 5-6 days a week. so i'm hoping by the time I hit maybe 190 I'll be back in a size 12 which I haven't worn since like middle school. But we'll see how it goes. But there's an enabler in my house and I think they're trying to get in my way