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I've not really done anything exciting lately, just trying to keep healthy and lose weight. 2 lbs away from being at 205. 7 lbs away from being 200.....I need to work hard. I've 4 days to lose another 2 lbs to be at 205 by the end of the week. I think I'm gonna finally conquer it this time.
gotta keep going.

So Sorry everyone

So to all those who read my blog, I'm extremely sorry I haven't posted in a long time. At the moment, I have work almost every day it seems and haven't really done anything besides that. Since the weather has been looking fairly decent as of late, I'm planning to go out this weekend ( Saturday to be exact) I will definitely try to post either that night or my next chance with the computer. Lately I had a bit of an epiphany, and have been rejuvenated it seems, After looking at several pictures of my favorite character ( who I am nicknamed after) Miwako, I was inspired to definitely have a look to call my own. I want it to be Elegant, Glamorous, Sweet, extravagant, and above all Udoli. Now don't get it twisted, I'm still a faerie, but I was a faerie without style so to speak. I don't know how often I'll be getting out with how much I seem to be working. I need to change my Availability for the moment because of the work schedule dad has, and quite frankly, I don't like to catch the bus to late at night for anything. But maybe that way I will have more time to go during the day instead of having it wasted at work with their sad excuse for giving me hours ( come on what 22 year old girl wants to work work from the middle of the afternoon til almost closing time) I mean I don't have a car or anyform of transportation for late night outings so, guess I'll really need to work on that. This is also a sign of me coming more to terms with my age, although I'll still strive to um not wear what the average girl my age is wearing. We weren't made with cookie cutters. I do feel I'm starting to get a bit more Mature. Even with the sick twisted, perverted mind I have. I will always be a little girl at heart. I feel so much better with these thoughts and so far 2010 has been good. I've been trying to eat better, by not buying food at work <___<;;; it's difficult. But I'm trying my hardest, I do need to work out more, so February I'm going to get a bike for myself. I don't need a car at the moment. If I need to go to the club, I'll just ask to stay with Tiffy-pop. I vow to walk through the dog shit and out shine all thought they were more fabulous and glamorous than I. No longer am I the push over or the girl with the low self-esteem. Bitches can suck my swagger. I realize people put me down because of Jealousy and fear, I was brave to be who I wanted and outshined the brightest star and didn't even realize it. It's the year 2010 and I'm taking over.

2010 is almost here

The year is almost over, there is an excitement I have, waiting for the new year to end. I really can't wait for 2010 to be here. I have alot planned for next year.

My number one resolution is to be less of a hermit. I want to travel more, get mingling more. Should be very fun.
Going to Visit my Twin in April, Otakon in the summer :3, maybe some concerts here and there if I can find some I'd go to, see if I can find some interesting local bands to go watch. Definitely want to get back to clubbing.

Number 2 be happii and healthy, I don't like to being at the weight, even though I've lost weight, I need to lose more. So more Alli, going back to cayenne pepper, and more replacement meal shakes. Eating smaller, exercise, dancing classes. I'm gonna do it all. I won't let anyone stop me if I can help it. I won't let sadness be the center of my life, I refuse to let it cripple me.

Number 3 will be my transtioning, By the end of the year I will become a full fledged earth bound faerie. I will be getting more tattoos, will definitely be getting my second one before the year is over, it's really over due...which means no online shopping for me. That's alright, I don't think I need anything at the moment. I will continue making my clothes and picking up pieces for my wardrobe I feel will fit. I will make my Dreams a reality.

Here is a 2010 Preview




In other news I've gotten some new things :3
a lot of stuff in the mail, this is why I can't be on ebay. I'll make a seperate post to show off my goodies, now I've got to take care of some business.


Oh before I go, I'd like to say, I really seeing lazy ass Dance Covers, come on, if' you're gonna dance put some fucking energy. I will be doing some soon, and puting energy into them ( and without being too over the top) But seriously, and the people who leave positive comments for them...why, I don't care what their reasoning is, unless they're extremely ill ( which then would raise the question of why they're dancing and not laying down) It irritates the shit out of me. Do it right or GTFO the webbernets, it ain't cute.

Bai Bai Buuu :D

So this is me in Udoli mode I made the sweater and you can see all my teefs, I still have baby teeth on the bottom there. My wig hasn't gotten here yet and all my pictures for my purchases are on the other laptop D: so next post hopefully you will see them. Well nai nai buuu

Ringo no Juicu :D

Damn I haven't posted in a bit, D: I've mostly been working but I've done some sewing in the past couple days :3, getting some stuff done, so there has been some productivity in my life. Seahorse finally gave me his address, I cannot wait to go visit. I've ordered quite a bit online late, so there will be a nice post once more stuff comes in, Do things in batches instead of waiting for everything to be here. will also post my completed crafties n____n. I really want my wig to come in here D: Like seriously. It's gonna be so win. I can't wait for Minky skull to get here either so I can make my hair accessory. New pictures coming on Thursday and possibly friday. Wahh I don't even have anything really to show today. It's late too, I was gonna play Katamari, but I'd be on it all night if I did that <_____<;;;;>